POKEGEAR (MoM IC Contact)

[halloflamer]

"The name's Blue! I'm busy right now, so leave me a message, and maybe if I like you enough I'll respond... hahaha!

Smell ya later!"

[TEXT | VOICE | VIDEO]

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[halloflamer]

well

he's from Yuri's world right?

he can just explain it?

[lempereur]

I don't think that's really the same.

If I were thrust into an unfamiliar world and told that I am in a polyamorous relationship, with one party being a complete stranger, I likely take it poorly.

[halloflamer]

I guess not..

[sheesh such a DEBBIE DOWNER, Yusuke!!]

but at least you could be friends

[lempereur]

Maybe.

[ Sorry! He's not sure how being friends with an ex he never actually broke up with would work. He still has nude pictures of him... ]

[halloflamer]

[there'll always be the nudes....]

you really think if he came back he wouldn't see the same things in you?

[lempereur]

I don't know.

The circumstances would be different. Maybe he comes from another point in time, and things have changed. Maybe the fact that I have all these memories and intimate knowledge about him scares him off.

There is no guarantee. I don't know what to do with that knowledge.

[halloflamer]

[Blue thinks on it for a long few minutes]

the worst that happens is nothing right

I always kept my feelings for Red because I thought there was no way he could ever have those feelings after all the bad blood between us when we were younger

weren't you the one who was so confident that we both liked each other?

maybe it's none of my business but I think you should try

if he were to come back I mean

[which is a pretty big 'if', but if he's already worrying himself over it...]

[lempereur]

I would have to try. I would never be able to keep my mouth shut about it.

But if it does not work...I don't know.

I suppose I should focus on one thing st a time.

[halloflamer]

I guess

trying is all you can do

at least you wont be alone though

[lempereur]

I am not alone. There are plenty of people here that care for me, I should be grateful for that.

Knowing that does not make me feel less anxious.

[halloflamer]

I guess I’m one of the last people to be saying this

but it’s probably pointless to be anxious over something you don’t know will happen right

anyway if he comes back at all won’t it be better than not?

[lempereur]

I'm not sure. Will it?

He can go back to his career doing what he loved without the constant threat of aliens or evil clones or nuclear annihilation. Nothing he knew back home prepared him for this.

[halloflamer]

[Blue would be lying if he said he’d never thought the same, of if Red was to go home. But he was also selfish enough to want him to stay, rather than return safely home and leave Blue there...]

then it’s good, right?

I think you’re allowed to be selfish and still wish he was with you even if you recognize that it’s for the best if he’s safe at home

in any case I didn’t know him so well but I doubt beating yourself up about what might happen is what he’d want either

[lempereur]

Is that really okay?

[halloflamer]

I think so

for whatever I think is worth

[lempereur]

It is worth something
else I would not have asked

Thank you. I think I just need some time to deal with it.

[halloflamer]

yeah..

sorry

if I lost Red again I'd probably lose it too

[lempereur]

I wouldn't say that I am losing it, exactly.

It's more of a numbness, I think.

[halloflamer]

uh

I guess that’s better..

[lempereur]

I don't know that it is.

I'm sorry for putting this on you.

[halloflamer]

it's ok

it's better either way if you talk to someone, right?

[lempereur]

[ Talking about his bad feels with anyone but Yuri and Otabek is still kind of new to him...? He would rather just not burden others with it. ]

I suppose it is.

[halloflamer]

[Blue doesn't really feel like he helped a whole lot. Should he have said something else? Something more? It was new to him too, sharing feelings of any kind, with anyone but Red. But it felt like he was letting him down somehow, to not find some kind of solution to the problems he's being told.]

you can do it again

if you need to

[lempereur]

Thank you, Blue. I appreciate that.

[ Really, it's enough that he listened and didn't make it weird. Yusuke knows that it isn't something words can fix, hopefully he can just wait it out. ]