halloflamer | POKEGEAR (MoM IC Contact)

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POKEGEAR (MoM IC Contact)

"The name's Blue! I'm busy right now, so leave me a message, and maybe if I like you enough I'll respond... hahaha!

Smell ya later!"

[TEXT | VOICE | VIDEO]

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[Red has been trying - trying to figure out what to say, anyway. He's got it all laid out in his head, but putting it to words - even over text - is always more difficult. Given that, it takes him a while to respond - he just wants to make sure he's got it all right.]

i love you

[That's a good start, right?]

what i did was stupid
+ dangerous
i wasnt thinking
+ i shud have told you
cause i kno you only make things better
ur so smart
+ i always wnt 2 be on your team
+ have u on mine

i get caught up sometimes
in how i feel
not an excuse
but i wnt 2 try harder 2 think b4 i do those things
think abt u

[It takes a long time for Blue to absorb it all, but it's all he's been wanting. He knows how hard it is for Red, to let everything out like this; he knows how hard it is for him to say anything at all. But Archie is right; he has to push Red to communicate with him more, if they're going to truly work things out together.]

[His own reply takes a little while, but he has to do it.]

I'm scared One day youre going to run out when one of these terrible things happens and youre going to get hurt

[He hesitates, typing bubble bouncing along Red's comm, for a while here]

or im going to

[(Again, he doesn't say.)]

[It hurt so much]

[(But he knows that.)]

I'm sorry I called you selfish I just want you to trust me again, like before everything I want to help you, whatever your dreams are I want to be with you forever Even if we don't remember when we leave this place But I have to know I can count on you to come home to me

[He has to stop, because he can't see his comm anymore through the tears.]

Edited 2018-05-29 23:53 (UTC)

i do trust u b
i trust u more than any1

[It was never about trust. Of course he trusts Blue. Whatever happened in the past, he's beyond that now - they are.]

i wnt to come home 2 u every day
here + home

[But can he promise to never go rushing ahead into battle again? Not entirely. Part of what makes Red Red is that passion to help those in need, to fight for justice where it's due - but he can be smarter about it, safer, and he can include Blue on his team.]

i still wnt 2 do the right thing
when i hav 2
but i wnt 2 do it w u by my side
+ do it right

ull help me
wont u?

[Blue... hesitates.]

I want to

[but]

[but I]

but I'm scared

i kno

me 2

but well do it 2gether
everything

i wont let u down again b

[I won't let you get hurt again. I'll protect you.]

you never did Stupid

[After a moment]

where are you?

still @ work
about 2 come home

r u there?

Dummy don't text this kind of stuff at work

[Says the emotional bitch that goes to cry in the bathroom at work]

Im here Im waiting

ill b home soon

[Pause.]

i love you
so much b

I love you Reddy Im sorry Im always like this Red You feel okay right? I mean you dont feel bad about yourself?

[You know, in the way that might lead to self-sacrificially throwing yourself into danger over and over again......]