[He would be here until he wasn't, anyway - but Red tries not to think about that right now. Instead, he just lets himself cling and lets himself cry, letting Blue hold him up while the world falls down around him. It's a strange sensation - perhaps the role that Red had always wished for Blue to play, but had they ever really been in this sort of situation before? In the past, hadn't it been Blue who had caused Red to crumble in the first place?
[He doesn't dwell on it. In fact, his mind is relatively blank as they sway there in his living room, his hands still gripping at Blue's back, his face still buried in his shoulder. It takes him a while, but eventually the older man's sobbing subsides into nothing more than a few weak hiccups.
[He's still holding on, and there's something in his chest, toying at the tip of his tongue and prying at his lips - something he wants to say but can't. It's not an unfamiliar feeling for Red, but this is - this comfort, this peace, this warmth from the man he--
[No. He can't say that now. Blue would never understand what he meant, what he didn't mean-- What he pretended not to mean. Whatever words might have been repeating in his head, Red chokes them back and clears his throat instead, finally lifting his head from Blue's shoulder and instead muttering a soft, broken:]
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[He doesn't dwell on it. In fact, his mind is relatively blank as they sway there in his living room, his hands still gripping at Blue's back, his face still buried in his shoulder. It takes him a while, but eventually the older man's sobbing subsides into nothing more than a few weak hiccups.
[He's still holding on, and there's something in his chest, toying at the tip of his tongue and prying at his lips - something he wants to say but can't. It's not an unfamiliar feeling for Red, but this is - this comfort, this peace, this warmth from the man he--
[No. He can't say that now. Blue would never understand what he meant, what he didn't mean-- What he pretended not to mean. Whatever words might have been repeating in his head, Red chokes them back and clears his throat instead, finally lifting his head from Blue's shoulder and instead muttering a soft, broken:]
Thank you...